Rebuilding after burnout
It’s been quiet here since I returned from my Vanuatu trip.
There’s a reason for that.
Earlier this year, I suffered from what only can be described as epic burnout. In between running an online program, managing multiple clients, coaching clients, producing a podcast, breaking up with my partner, giving away or selling most of my belongings and taking the big, uncomfortable leap of travelling overseas on my own, I “forgot” to prioritise taking care of myself.
And then I got really really sick.
There are many reasons why this happened which I won’t go into here, but boy, did burnout teach me a lot about me.
It highlighted some old, outdated beliefs that needed to go (some that aren’t even mine like – “The harder you work the luckier you get.” I’m not taking this one forward).
It highlighted all the ingrained patterns from years of smashing myself in the big “C” that is the Corporate world (Wait! What? I have my own business? I don’t have to work 80 hours a week?).
But mainly what I discovered was that none of these old beliefs or patterns could have taken hold or infiltrated my business if I deeply, truly cared for and – here I go, I’m going to say it – loved me.
That’s right, Self-Love – boundaries, self-worth, charging my worth, saying yes and no when it’s relevant, nourishing myself, speaking nicely to myself, valuing my skills and capabilities.
When I stopped and took a good hard look at the foundation on which I built my business (actually my whole entire life), it stunk. The foundation was infiltrated with self-punishment and self-loathing, forcing, pushing and lack mentality.
It sounds yuck because it was yuck.
And it was only a matter of time before it all came crumbling down. Those kinds of foundations do not a solid business (or life) make.
And that’s exactly what happened – my business came tumbling down – actually, not to be too dramatic, my whole life pretty much dismantled.
What’s great about a life dismantling? What’s great about being at ground zero? What’s great about having absolutely nothing?
You get to rebuild from a completely clean slate. A brand new chapter. To mould and shape in whatever way you like.
And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing.
For the past two months, since returning from Vanuatu, I’ve been doing some deep inner work. Laying new foundations very carefully.
I’ve deliberately steered clear of social media. I’ve been very careful about who I spend my time with. I’ve been meditating like I’ve never meditated before. I’ve been focusing my thoughts. I’ve been nourishing my body with raw, vegan foods, health treatments and regular fasting. I’m learning the ukulele and singing at the top of my lungs. I’m researching to buy another campervan. And I’ve been having FUN! Saying YES to my friends’ invitations for co-working days, long lunches, midday swims in the creek, nights out drinking wine and dancing. But most importantly, I’ve been treating me with the love and respect I deserve.
This new chapter, I’ve titled Nourishment + Happiness.
For a while there, I wasn’t even sure I was going to return to my business. In fact, I spent quite a few weeks looking for a corporate job (which, was all kinds of spirit crushing – but I’ll save those thoughts and that story for another day).
But, as the new foundations began to mould into place, my new path became clear.
I’ve discovered something about myself – I’m really fucking good at business systems and strategy. Actually, I’ve known this for a while, I just didn’t want to own it.
I also know what it’s like to be a solo female entrepreneur. I know how isolating it can be. I know how much work it can take.
And I know how easy it is to burn yourself out (see me, Exhibit A).
There are smarter ways to work. There is support you can get.
And this is where I come in.
You might have noticed my website has had a revamp.
My official title (I don’t like titles but you kinda need one when you’re in business) is: Business Manager and Virtual Assistant.
My clients: are a broad mix of environmental and sustainability experts, not-for-profits, healers, authors, speakers, coaches and artists. Basically, anyone who is making positive change in the world.
The kinds of services I offer look like this.
And I’m officially opening my doors.
Right now, I’m already working with three wonderful women. But I do have spaces for one or two more.
Perhaps one of these spaces is for you? Or for someone you know?
You might want take a look at some of the past clients and projects I’ve been involved in to get a feel for what I do.
If working together is feeling like a possible ‘YES!’, flick me an email email@example.com and let’s chat some more.
Here’s to new chapters and to building businesses and lives with joy, love and a whole lotta ease!
PS. For those of you wondering if I still do podcast coaching – YES! Check out The Podcast School for more details. And in a couple of weeks there will be a BIG end of year sale happening on all courses in the school. Keep an eye out for that.
PPS. Is Untangled coming back? Maybe… watch this space.